Beating off is hard

It took forever to reach an orgasm tonight. I found myself digging deep for some form of depraved imagery to get the fears in motion. It becomes frustration and determination rolled into one. With the freedom to have orgasms every day, you'd think nothing would be in my way. Though today, my mind said yes and my body said no.

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